soccer game tonight lost by 2 i did something stupid and im not sure about the rest of my game oh well....
ok here i go im gonna pour out my guts if the word gets out.. well fuck em
i miss jayson
soooooo much... tonight brianna and i were talking about realationships and stuff and i just kept coming back to how much it sucks he doesnt wanna talk.. i miss him:(
I dont know wats wrong with me i just feel like running over to his house right now and hugging the hell outta him:(::(:(:(:(:( jkhaslkjfhjdkashf
i dont know if this is becuz the brittney situation and partly how apparently his cousin told him i told her why we broke up but all i member saying was it didnt work out and stuff like that that we argued alot and stuff but idk it was over a year ago!
if this thing with britt never happened would things be the same? i told both of them i never wanna hear bout it again so im gonna drop it now.. i cant play with life on "what ifs"
alright enough of this onto better news... tomrw i get to go see the Dutch coaches along with the students so that will be fun im gonna give em all big hugs:P haha
I SAW JAMES! it was so djshafjkh weird yet nice to see him.. good times..
I have the hardest time trusting people
caribou makes me laugh...once i get outta this fuck town im gonna come back only to point and laugh at everyone who stayed..
im tired of getting hurt.. i havent had a bf for over 7 months i think.. idk if i want one or not.. i dont wanna get hurt so my next one better not be a fucktard lol
i need to just.. kldjsfalk idk something
i need something to focus on thats wat it is.. i need something to put my energy into.. something like a job maybe idk
alright i said i was done talking about jayson but here i go becuz this journal is really only one that tori and scum can see so u guys dont say nothing. if u even read this id write it but idk this is just easier.. but ok well i really thought about is last night and i wanna talk to jayson in person.. make him look and me and tell me why hes doing this i can stand hearing the things hes saying but i dont know if hed be able to say them to my face for him it could be a cover up if he truly means them he'll say it to my face..it'll hurt and ill cry but ill know for sure and this way i guess i can truly just leave him alone as he wishes..all of a sudden
i have to get ahold of andrew here soon its driving me nuts.. erin wants him to come saturday night to the movies.. therefore tori if ur reading this your invited as well...idk details yet..
alot of people will come to me with there problems.. which i dont mind i love giving advice... but i guess im just now realizing
im listening to music thats making me cry.. not good
remember u never know wat u got til it leaves u therefore in conclusion just be thankful for everything.. appreicate the small things.. they'll leave u very quickly Current Mood: sad